Could Your Urinary Tract Infection Be Caused By Your Kundalini Awakening? The Spiritual Meaning Of A UTI

How a recurrent UTI created a spiritual metamorphosis in me

In the third week of March 2024, I got a UTI that did not respond to natural treatment or multiple rounds of antibiotics. It kept coming back despite my serious efforts to heal it both allopathically as well as naturally. It was an infection, I simply had to ride out because as annoying as it was, it initiated me into a spiritual metamorphosis I had not expected to present itself this way.

At the same time, I believe that it’s because of this deeper underlying spiritual process that I couldn’t just make it go away naturally or allopathically. We are so used to not having to suffer whether we use allopathic solutions or natural ones. Like every other human being, I prefer not to suffer. Still, it was this not being able to avoid suffering despite carefully following the instructions of my doctor and naturopathic healers that facilitated the spiritual metamorphosis I experienced.

To make everything I learned from this process easy for you to read and assimilate, I have chopped it up into multiple blogs to address:

• The physical aspect of naturally healing UTIs and co-infections such as BV and Yeast infections.
• The metaphysical meaning of these three infections and Streptococcus infection because that was the main bacterial culprit behind the infections I had.
• The possible spiritual meaning of UTIs that I will discuss in this blog.

During these six months from the first UTI till now, I did many therapy sessions with different healers and therapists, to get to the bottom of what wanted to be seen, felt, and heard. I will write a separate Soul Teaching on this in the future, for now, I will summarize it to keep this blog readable.

The recurrent UTIs helped me:

• Heal old fear patterns, including scarcity & survival programming
• Release my defense, protection & survival mechanisms created in childhood and on a Soul path level
• See the truth about the incest and sexual abuse I experienced as a child, which was much worse than I had thought
• Release outdated beliefs and self-identifications
• Heal patriarchal wounding and the distrust of the Divine Feminine (which corresponds with the metaphysical meanings of UTIs, BV, and Yeast infections that I will discuss in an upcoming blog)
• Find (feel) safety within myself
• Step off the wheel of karma
• Become sovereign and reclaim my power

Metaphysical or emotional meaning of UTIs

When I had the first UTI, everyone I spoke to was eager to tell me that UTIs are caused by anger, especially towards a male partner. This is based on the popularisation of Louise Hay’s definition. I love Louise Hay’s work but there are better resources out there for people who want to dive deeper into the metaphysical and emotional meaning of their symptoms and diseases. I will discuss these other resources in the metaphysical meanings blog.

Louise Hay says about ‘Urinary infections: Pissed off, usually at the opposite sex or a lover. Blaming others‘ I actually think her interpretation of the bladder is more correct. ‘Bladder Problems: Anxiety. Holding on to old ideas. Fear of letting go. Being “pissed off”.’

Because being angry at the opposite sex, a lover, or blaming others didn’t resonate for me, I deepened my search to understand my own process better. To me, the below makes a whole lot more sense than the blanket statement that UTIs are about being “pissed off” because there seems to be a much deeper mental, emotional, and energetic cleansing mechanism behind them.

Anger could play a role, but it’s not the main issue as there are many other repressed emotions at play including for example fear, grief, and other trauma-related emotions that are potentially being let go of on an emotional and energetic level during a UTI.

Is your UTI part of a spiritual process?

I am not implying that every UTI is part of a spiritual process, but it could be a way that your body is helping you release dense emotions and frequencies due to your spiritual awakening or Kundalini awakening process.

Even, when this is the case you should use allopathic or natural remedies to help your body move the invading pathogens out. Because a spiritual underlying cause does not mean that there isn’t a real physical infection. I was tested throughout my recurring episodes of UTIs and tested positive multiple times for the same bacteria causing my physical symptoms.

Don’t fall into the trap of spiritualizing your symptoms, thinking they are only ‘psychosomatic‘ and then not taking care of your physical body. Because both things can be true at the same time:

You can have an actual physical infection, that is also part of your spiritual process.

During my search to find answers in my own process, I found clues online that there is a correlation between a spiritual and Kundalini awakening and Urinary Tract Infections UTIs. Although there aren’t really any great resources to link to, I did find some mention online of UTIs being common during a spiritual awakening.

I also saw a video with someone who teaches Kundalini Awakening, which explained that because the Kundalini starts in the root chakra any lingering sexual trauma is brought up to be cleared out.

This is interesting because girls and women who have experienced sexual abuse are 2.1 times as likely to be diagnosed with urinary health issues and 1.4 times as many with genital health issues than girls in the general population. Source: nouvelles.umontreal.ca

In this blog, I will piece together the evidence I found to support that UTIs and recurrent UTIs can be a part of your spiritual awakening or Kundalini awakening process.

The unblocking and cleansing of the heart chakra

When I had the rUTIs – toward the end, I also had huge heart chakra movements. Perhaps because I was addressing all my childhood defense, protection, and survival mechanisms (root chakra) – the lingering unresolved emotional pain from these experiences that had created a hardened layer on my heart chakra to protect myself, was now being broken down and cleared out.

This hardened layer corresponds with what is considered a blocked heart chakra.

‘A blocked chakra occurs when energy cannot flow through it or at least not fully or in balance with other chakras. Because they manifest in all aspects of wellness, signs of a blocked heart chakra can be physical, emotional, and spiritual: High blood pressure. Lowered immunity and more frequent infections.’ Source: yoga.issaonline.com

In order to understand this, we have to remember that a traumatic experience doesn’t neatly block one chakra – for example sexual abuse not only blocks the sacral chakra. It creates blocks in multiple chakras that are connected to the experience, in my case it created blocks in the root, sacral, solar plexus, and heart chakra. When the Kundalini energy starts rising, it pushes out these deeply repressed and often extremely painful memories and emotions.

‘Kundalini is working very hard in that part of your system to liberate you. One of the most important purposes and tasks is to awaken your heart center, to free you up from defenses, armoring, and all the ways you shut down your heart. When this happens, your heart can be a place of love, compassion, curiosity, openness, and patience with others and yourself.’ Source: myree.com.au

The stress from the heart pouring into the bladder

There also seems to be a correlation between the repressed emotions in the heart pouring into the bladder. The research I found is specifically about interstitial cystitis, but I heard it in another context as well in relation to recurrent UTIs where someone mentioned their TCM (Traditional Chinese Medicine) practitioner telling them this. Later my new acupuncturist who I consulted confirmed this as well.

‘The Chinese medicine pattern etiology of Heat from the Heart due to suppressed emotions surging downward to the Bladder is closely associated with the signs and symptoms of IC (interstitial cystitis)’. Source: convergentpoints.com

Removing the protective layers of the heart

At the height of my issues, I even developed psoriasis on both of my middle fingers, a condition I had never had before, and that healed as I healed the emotional causes underlying my physical symptoms.

‘Psoriasis can symbolically provide an armored shell for protection, but it can also impair emotional and spiritual intimacy.’ Source: ncbi.nlm.nih.gov

In Traditional Chinese Medicine it’s the pericardium meridian that runs through the middle finger.

‘Through self-expression, the Pericardium Meridian line helps us to create balance within our hearts. Also known as the ‘Guardian of the Heart’ or ‘Circulation-Sex’ Meridian. The pericardium provides the heart with physical protection, its energy also protects the heart from damage and disruption by excessive emotional energies generated by the other organs, such as anger from the liver, fear from the kidneys, and grief from the lungs. The Pericardium meridian can be explored to support clear communication of the Heart’s desires and to soothe and soften emotional defenses that are no longer useful to us.‘ Source: wildloveyoga.com

Balancing the masculine & the feminine

Through the process of releasing these suppressed emotions through the UTI not only did the merging of the divine feminine and masculine come up in my healing sessions, but also ending a karmic cycle and being able to step off the wheel of karma.

This corresponds with the Kundalini entering and cleansing the heart chakra:

‘Before (the Kundalini) reaches the heart chakra, we were bound by the laws of karma. With the merging of the divine feminine and the divine masculine, we gain the ability to make our own decisions. We become an aspect of Karma itself.

This chakra is the balancing pivot between the three lower and three higher chakras. Here, our higher nature has the potential to become manifest. We are now free to “follow our own heart.” We have discovered that sacred place where the sages can hear the secrets of the universe: a language older than words.

Heart chakra is the seat of Vital Breath, like water (Sacral Chakra), air assumes the shape of whatever it fills, yet it is less subject to gravity than water, and so we may require a replanting of our Root chakra in order to remain grounded. Air is breath, and so it is vital that it be free, but it can also overwhelm us if not balanced properly.’ Source: fractalenlightenment.com

The urinary tract processes and releases emotions

Although I didn’t get a kidney infection, the kidney area did become more sensitive which also makes sense when you read:

Kidneys are about processing emotions. The left kidney indicates unprocessed emotional triggers from the past. The right kidney indicates new emotional triggers in the present including the last two years.

The bladder then is our ability to let go of all these now conscious painful emotions that are on their way out of the body. This by no means is to say that you should not treat a UTI naturally or allopathically, rather it is to help you understand the possible deeper processes behind your physical symptoms from a vibrational and spiritual perspective.

The Kundalini awakening & UTIs

Another clue that this is a spiritual process and Kundalini-related is that the bladder meridian is believed to be part of the Kundalini pathway.

Dr. Motoyama believes that the Ida and Pingala Nadis correspond to the Urinary Bladder meridians because they run along either side of the spine.’
Source: yinyoga.com

‘The Ida and Pingala represent the basic duality in the existence. It is this duality which we traditionally personify as Shiva and Shakti. Or you can simply call it masculine and feminine…

Bringing a balance between the Ida and Pingala will make you effective in the world, it will make you handle life aspects well. Most people live and die in Ida and Pingala; Sushumna, the central space, remains dormant. But Sushumna is the most significant aspect of human physiology. Only when (the Kundalini) energies enter into Sushumna, life really begins.’ Source: isha.sadhguru.org

TCM on emotions associated with the bladder

The emotions associated with the bladder meridian in Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM) like the bladder and the kidneys are connected to fear. One of the symptoms of Kundalini awakening is that it can bring up a lot of unresolved emotions including fear:

• ‘….. lists one of the effects of kundalini awakening as psychological and emotional upheaval, including intensification of unresolved psychological conflict, fear of death or insanity, and overwhelming mood swings. heightened sensitivity to others’ moods, confusion.’ Source: med.virginia.edu
• ‘…..some of the symptoms of kundalini awakening are the same as symptoms of psychiatric diagnoses like panic attacks, depression, and PTSD.’ Source: onlinescientificresearch.com

This would make sense that if the bladder meridian is the ida and pingala nadis, when the Kundalini energy moves through them as part of the Kundalini awakening process the fear emotions stored there are released.

Whether we look through the lens of TCM or the ancient Vedic knowledge around the chakras and the Kundalini awakening experience we see that they point to the same things. The balance of the masculine and feminine within ourselves and the cleansing of the systems involved; i.e. the bladder meridian (ida & pingala nadis) and the heart chakra to facilitate the rising of the Kundalini energy into the upper chakras.

Healing our patriarchal wounding

As an interesting side note my episodes of recurring UTIs occurred while I was writing the Healing the Masculine & Feminine series and in the process of healing my own deepest patriarchal wounding.

In fact, part I of that series was inspired by the understanding I got from a past life I saw in a session with one of the Soul Embodiment® therapists I trained in my certification program. This session took place four days before the first UTI showed up.

Although I had done previous work on balancing my inner feminine and masculine before this, it was as if I was now able to access the root cause of this disbalance and was ready to release it on a cellular level.

This whole process was about cleansing everything that I had been holding onto on a cellular level.

Our patriarchal wounding is stored in the root, sacral, and solar plexus chakra. Not only that it is what causes the disbalance of the inner feminine and masculine within our psyche. If we want to have the Kundalini move into the heart chakra, we have to heal our own inner masculine and inner feminine so that they can be each other’s equal and come into perfect balance (union) and harmony within ourselves, as described below.

‘The Anahata or Heart chakra is associated with love. It is the meeting place for the divine masculine and divine feminine forces where they can exist in perfect balance. Anahata is represented by a lotus flower with twelve petals inside of which is a six-pointed star made of two intersecting triangles (the Shatkona or Star of David) that depicts the union of Purusha and Prakrititi / Shiva and Shakti / Male and Female – the source of all creation.’ Source: soultree.co.nz

The memories and emotions you have been hiding from yourself

The thing with this level of healing is that these are the things you are even hiding from yourself. Yes, I have known for multiple decades that I had been sexually abused by my father and I always thought it had not been as bad as for example my 9-years older half-sister who had also been abused by him.

The reality that I had been hiding from myself all these years was much worse than I could have ever imagined and although that doesn’t sound inviting to go face such deep painful memories, this is why especially these infections can be so tenacious and difficult to heal because they are trying to help us expel these deeply lodged lower frequency emotions from our system.

They are a blessing in disguise because not only does our physical body function better without them, but so does our mental, emotional, and vibrational body. They have to be released to be able to open our heart chakra and continue raising the Kundalini into our upper three chakras.

However, I am not talking about the level of spirituality that we think we are at, because as a human race – we tend to overestimate this anyway. I am talking about the level of Soul & spirituality (our own Divinity) that we can actually embody in the physical.

The one thing I have found is that healing our relationship with the Divine Feminine within ourselves is an intrinsic part of this. What better way to heal this than through afflictions in our yoni* that force us to face our deeper subconscious wounds around our femininity and the Divine Feminine?

*’Yoni is a Sanskrit word that has been interpreted to literally mean the “womb”, the “source”, and the female organs of generation. It also connotes the female sexual organs such as “vagina”, “vulva”, and “uterus”, or alternatively to “origin, abode, or source” of anything in other contexts.’
Source: Wikipedia.com 

I pray that this resource helps you understand how a UTI or rUTIs can be a part of your spiritual and Kundalini awakening. Of course, I will be happy to assist you in looking deeper at the unresolved emotional pain that wants to be seen in your life, to help you remove the blocks it has created in your chakra system. Please check out the different sessions I offer to pick the one that best suits you.

Have you struggled or are you struggling from a UTI or rUTIs? Let me know in the comments if you have any questions, takeaways, or tips for our community to support them in their healing process.